Screaming, yelling, and torn apart. I honestly thought I would have a family forever. I thought I would have someone to call mom and dad forever. Someone that would pay for my medical bills, have someone to pick my wedding dress out with, and just come home to for the holidays. But I was dreaming a little to far ahead.
I was put in the system when I was five, but got adopted when I was eight. But then got put back in at fourteen. Man am I glad I'm in the system. I couldn't be more happy that I screwed up in my adopted home and got put back in. Its not just that they were freaking crazy, and had mental issues. But they didn't make me happy. Why stay with someone who makes everyday a living hell. It's like a x boyfriend you can't shake off. Why let some one hurt you and make you feel like crap. It's not worth it.
now that I'm not in my adopted home I've been through a few different homes. Now I don't have just mom I have twenty. Well that might be exaggerating a little but you know what I mean. Now I have multiple people to pick out my wedding dress with, to go to for the holidays, and even call mom and dad. And well the state pays for my medical bills but hey I'm not paying for them. I have people who love me, people who care, and people who would do anything for me.
I learned a lot in my adoptive home. Like how to make strawberry jam, take the bad things and change them for positive. Change them to things that I've learned, and make the worst the best. But I will never regret moving out of my adopted house, now I have everything.
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I have a friend who was in a similar situation. He was put into states custody a few months after he was born from then till the age of 5 he was in and out of foster care. His family adopted him when he was 5 then put him back in states custody when he was 14. He was a great kid in his adopted home only made one little mistake then his adoptive family said everything we've done for you and you screw up that's it your done sent him away then was again moved from home to home.
This is so amazing that you were able to learn from your mistake rather than keep doing it and keep screwing up. You are so strong for being in for so long and you haven't tried ending it all yet. I give you mad props for everything you have accomplished. It's amazing how you have held on to everything and haven't fallen apart yet.
It's good you left the crazy people.I wouldn't want to live with crazy people.It makes you wonder how they became foster parents.i feel bad for there new kids.
This one is a good one Fergie! I like how at the end you said what you learned in your adoptive home even though it didn't work out the way you were hoping. From what I can tell, you have what you were looking for from the beginning. I hope it works out better than last time.
It's not good that you got put in the system so early. It's is however, great that you have someone there for you. Losing your family is tough, and a lot of us can relate to it. Yet that early in life, it makes it even tougher. We need to appreciate what we have. Even if the only thing we have is am adopted family. It's still something. Great post!
I admire anyone who can turn the page and move on. Life is good - sometimes we just need to find it.
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