My Favorite Mistake

"Do you want a hit?" Those are the 5 words that I will remember for the rest of my life. During lunch at school back in Vernal, me and all my friends were just hanging out when someone pulled out the weed and started passing it around. When it came to me, I didn't want to feel like the odd man out, so when my friend asked me if I wanted some, I accepted it. I think that my favorite mistake is also my one moment that if I had a chance to change, I wouldn't. It would have to be taking that first hit. I know that sounds kind of funny, because it's one thing that most people would want to change. With me though, if I wouldn't have gotten into drugs, I wouldn't have gone through the stuff I have. I wouldn't be the person that I am today. So although I have gone through some bad stuff, I don't regret having to go through it. 

For the first couple of years of my drug use, I thought they were the best thing in the world. I didn't care about getting locked up. I didn't care about the effect my drug use had on my family. That was all just stress to get rid of. When I finally realized that the drugs I was taking were bad, I had already become dependent on them. After that realization, I started to try and get clean. It was hard because I was so used to using weed as my stress reliever. It has always been a struggle for me, but on the road to sobriety, I realized that the closer you think you are to being done, the farther away you actually are. 

When you become comfortable and think that you got this, you realize that you don't. The only true way to get to sobriety is always pushing outside your comfort zone. When you are outside your comfort zone, all of the real work gets done. When you are inside your comfort zone, you are standing still. You aren't moving forward. Yeah, it might seem like you are, but look at it this way. If you aren't stressed or uncomfortable, where are you going? What are your goals? You can't get anywhere in life if you don't have either of those planned out. A wise man once told me that if you fail to plan, then you plan to fail. I got to thinking about that and I realized that I wasn't going anywhere. Yeah I had the goal to go home, but how do you get that one? Once I realized that, I started making concrete goals and concrete dates for those goals. 

So here I am today. All of this wisdom has come from one tiny mistake. That mistake to fall into peer pressure and do drugs has turned into my favorite point in time. I can honestly say that right now, I have no regrets of the past. Like I said earlier, my mistakes from the past may have seemed horrible at the time and I regretted them then, but they have made me who I am. I wouldn't have been able to learn what I know at this moment. So yeah, I Hope you learned something from my experiences and mistake.