Do/Don't Essay

Being in a group home isn't always easy. Im going to tell you the two hardest things to do in a group home.You need to figure out who you can and cant trust. You also need to know what you can and can't do. If you don't figure it out, then you'll get into trouble. 

Do: Try your hardest to succeed in the programming. The faster you succeed the sooner you'll be able to get out. For example, I've seen a girl who is still in the program and has been for eleven months. The reason for that is because she didn't try her hardest until she realized it was only keeping her in the group home longer.

Don't: Come to the group home thinking you can fake it and make it. Faking it will only cause you to stay in the group home longer. I know this because when i was in O&A I was faking it, so they sent me to a secure program called Artec South. And to be honest it wasn't worth it. I can tell you what, you do not want to be in the group home longer than you already have too.  

Do: Find out who will stay by your side through thick and thin. You need to know who you can open up to and who you can't. If you open up to the wrong person then you can get into deep trouble. Like this weekend a girl got put on staff watch for telling the wrong person what she was doing. 

Don't: Lie during therapy sessions. If you lie then you really won't succeed in the program. I use to lie during therapy which has caused me to stay in therapy for longer. If I would have just been honest I would be more successful and be done with therapy. 

And finally Do: Internalize what you are being taught. Internalizing will help you change your ways. Internalizing is very helpful in your progress in the group home. If you internalize you'll be more susceptible to change. If you change  you'll be able to go home sooner.

But for the love of everything holy Don't: Run. Running only causes you more trouble. For example you'll end up in detention, secure, or another program that is worse than the one you are already in. I ran from proctor home and got put in dentition. Now I'm in Haven Home For Girls, which is so much worse than being in Proctor care.  

My Favorite Mistake

December 11, 2012, My friend Bailey and I decided we'd bring alcohol to school. We wanted to forget about our exes. It was the dumbest but the most fun day of my life.

We were chugging the vodka like it was going out of style, when we realized we were too drunk to cope during school. I got this brilliant idea to leave school and go to my mom's friend Tammy's house. Little did I know this idea was going to lead me to getting in a ton of trouble.

Once inside the house we went up the stairs into my best friend Sierra's room and woke her up. She called me so many names, like your so dang  stupid, your an alcoholic, and even worse stuff than that. Sierra took us downstairs where we ate tons of food and decided to get high. After smoking the spice I lost control. I didn't know what I was doing. 

Now for the part that I regret the most, I ended up hitting my best friend. I woke up her step-dad Erik, which was a huge mistake. When he came down the stairs and saw me he threw me out the door and told me to never come back. I started walking down the highway when my mom showed up. I wouldn't get in the vehicle with her, so I walked into the middle of the road, praying I'd get hit.  II was so very close to getting hit by a semi, but I didn't care. I ended up getting scared and ran back to the other side of the highway. 

I kept walking down the highway when I ended up in front of my school. That's when the cop stopped me, gave me a breathalyzer test and arrested me. I called him a prick and spit on his car. Thats when he pushed me into the backseat and slammed the car. I was so intoxicated that I was taken to the hospital. On our way to the hospital I swore my wrist were bleeding. I thought I was going to die. When we finally arrived at the hospital they were holding on to me. I yelled at the cops and told them not to touch me. 

I was so terrified, because I had never been high at the same time as I was drunk. I ended up in detention for thirty days, and learned a ton about myself while in there. I'm getting the help I need for my addiction, and my family problems. I also learned that it's never a good idea to drink under the age, especially at school. 

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