My biggest mistake was trusting the people who I thought could help me, but instead they stabbed me in the back. I trusted my best friend, I trusted the police, I trusted everyone. I thought I could trust them. It's funny how the people who you care about, hurts you most of all. I would just meet a new person and deeply trust them. Which is bad, I believe.
Telling my best friend every little secret I had from my crushes to my depression. Then she decide to tell everyone at school. People laughed, bullied me. I thought I was alone. Then I started to cut, which made me feel worst about myself. I don't regret cutting because it taught me to solve my issues in a different way. After decide to therapy to work out my issues but we would talk about one thing and she would tell my parents another. It seemed that she was making my situation worst then it really was.I had two therapists that did the same thing. From that moment I thought all therapists were the same, so I stopped going to therapy and decide keeping my feelings to myself would be the best. I would sometimes share my feeling with my, but I always they sometimes didn't understand me. I felt completely vulnerable.
I hate the fact that I have a hard time trusting people, even though they are willing to help me. I just afraid of getting hurt again and suffer all the pain I went through. Before I just learned being alone was the way I have to deal with things. I know I am very defensive but it just happens. I think if I just keep my guard up with everyone I know that I won't get hurt, but keeping my emotions locked is wrong of me.
What I need to learn now is finding a balance to trusting people to a certain point. I also need to learn that keeping my emotions locked up is not helping me. This is my favorite mistake because I know my mistake will teach me for the future. I don't regret about my mistake it just help me to become a better person. No one perfect.
3 comments:
Debbie I can honestly say that trusting people can SOMETIMES hurt you but to never trust anyone will ALWAYS end up hurting you in some weird way. I think that right now you are doing pretty good. When that one person ends up being a loud mouth, just tell yourself that that's on them to have to talk trash on you in order to make themselves feel good. With me, I just try not to do anything that I wouldn't be proud to tell my mom, brother, or girlfriend. So ya, try and put my advice to work!
Trust is hard to find but easy to loose. I hate that betrayal always comes from the closest people to you not your enemies. Never let the shadow drag you down to the rust of the fall. Good favorite mistake tho.
Trusting people is hard, it takes time. I agree though some of the closest people in your life are the ones who end up hurting you. But those who do hurt you in ways don't deserve the presence of being around you. There are true and carrying people out there, and they are hard to find but stay positive. Positive vibes are the best vibes, loved youre blog!
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