I have been in the system since I was thirteen. I got in trouble all the time throughout the years. A few months ago I failed a drug test, tobacco test, and alcohol test. My caseworker told me they give up on me and that they were going to tell the judge they want me to spend sixty days in detention then close my case. I was so happy and couldn't wait to go to court.
When I went to court they changed the recommendation and decided I should spend thirty days in detention then go to Haven Home for Girls. Right after court I was took to detention. My case worker didn't visit me or talk to me for my first week of being in detention. In that first week my mom was saying she was going to get a lawyer and fight it.
After a few days I decided that this would be a good thing for me and it would make it easier for me to get out of the system if I go to the group home and get it over with. My mom was upset at first when I told her I didn't want her to get a lawyer. After a few weeks she got over it and encouraged me to do good in detention and the group home.
When my case worker came to see me she was really impressed with my attitude and enthusiasm about Haven Home. She even gave the judge a good report on me.
When I got to Haven Home my attitude changed and I wanted to go back to using and partying. On my first day there I started giving my room mate my adderall. I would spit it in my water bottle then give my water bottle to her. This went on for two weeks but then we got caught. We got our rooms changed but then we made a plan to run. A few weeks later I received my second level and that was when I really decided to change.
I'm proud of all the mistakes I've made because of those mistakes I am here now and I have a new view on life. I have learned how to learn from my mistakes and not everyone can do that. Thanks to all my mistakes I now know what I need to know to make it through my program and I'm able to go back home and not make the same mistakes as I did before.
3 comments:
It's always awkward when I'm the first to comment on someone's post, I don't know why. I love your favorite mistake went through the struggles of a gangsta. Just saying, I believe you could get out of the system it's just a matter of when you getting out. I know your smart and funny even though you never made me laugh. Good luck on your journey and kept up the hard for the freedom. Lights always at the end of the monkey looking tube tunnel.
I like how you said that you've learned from the mistakes you've made and how not just anybody can do that. I know that I haven't done that. Not yet anyways. I don't know if I will either. It takes a lot to accept the fact you made a mistake. It takes even more to change it and learn from it. Keep fighting girl! You'll be out before you know it!
Hey! I liked your do/dont blog you did goog one of the donts I agree with is dont trust any one!!!!!! It's true because you don't know who is going to be true full to you I know from experience I have let people in and got burned. One thing I think you should of added is one of the do's is even tho there is a lot of drama with the girls you still need to be civil with them and KEEP THEM ON YOUR GOOD SIDE! But overall you did great. Love ya
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