April 2012 I met my favorite mistake. I met him at a party he asked me to dance. I dance with him. We didn't really talk just danced. I knew his sister so she gave him my name. He found me on Facebook and we started to talk. We talked mostly everyday. Then we started hanging out he would even ditch school to come hang out with me. We started to like each other. He wasn't that cute but I thought he was sweet. Starting in May He asked me to be his girlfriend every single day for 3 months until I finally said yes to him on July 15, 2012. He was sweet, nice adorable, everything! He always knew what to say and always knew what to do. When I was sick he took care of me and made sure I was okay. When someone would say something about me he would stand up for me. He called me beautiful everyday.. He was perfect. So I thought.
I was falling in love I couldn't get enough of this kid we were always together, ALWAYS. He told me he loved me every minute I swear. Because I'm a girl I believed him. Everything was great and perfect.
After a few months things didn't seem right. He started acting wired. He became a little bit mean. I didn't understand. He stopped telling me I was beautiful. He started getting really mad for little things. He stopped caring about if I was sad or hurt, he just called me a cry baby. I was confused. He started being more rude each day. I couldn't leave though. I love him.
He started cheating on me and lying to me. But I always forgave him. Every single time. He would leave me at his house alone while he would go hang out with his "friends". If we ever went any where and if he saw his friends or other girls he would let go of my hand and start ignoring me. He started calling me names. He would called me a bitch for no reason. When I wouldn't want to go to his house he would say "Stop being such a bitch and just come" I didn't want him to be mad so I would go. He started telling me I was to fat. He would call me disgusting and tell me I needed to loose wait. I couldn't leave him. I love him. Near the end it got better. But worse at the same time. I had so much hate for him but love too. At times I would just look at him and I would wanna just punch him, strangle him.
One day he kept calling me a bitch so I started to beat him. I couldn't take it anymore I got on top of him and started punching him everywhere I could. I just wanted to hurt him, hurt him as much as he hurt me. He was screaming at me to get off him. I wouldn't. He eventually just kicked me off. Every fight after that went the same way. Finally we decided its best if we leave each other alone. I don't regret him. We had good times.
But I'm glad this happened I learned a lot from him. That's why he's my favorite mistake. I learned that I'm to young for "love" and even though I said I love him I really didn't I just thought I did. I also learned that even though a boy seems sweet and perfect you should still wait and make sure he's for real because they can turn out to be the complete opposite.
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Well this is awkward I'm first to comment wish is nice cause I'm nice to you. But I like your post really could relate to you and your little situation. Besides the beating and fighting things y'all went through. I learned too that high schoolers fall into things too quick like love. Realize that you young and good looking. Stay up and hope you have fun with your life. Hope you find the one you always been looking for.
I really like this post because you had a tough time with a guy but yet you made it through. I remember when I was in an abusive relation ship like this one. I hated it but I couldn't leave. I thought if I left he was going to beat me for real this time he always threatened it but never really carried it out. You have been through some really tough time but you always came out on top which is great. That is what I admire about you.
Well thanks Mary (:
Yeah that relationship sucked but its all good. He's gunna die alone, and me ill be with some sexy guy haha. His bad karma will come to him sooner or later(;
"To old for games & to young to get committed." that's how I see it. I've never been in a abusive relationship but then again I've been with the same guy almost four years "laugh out loud" but I'm really happy that you got out of the unhealthy relationship, I really am. Things will always get hard in a relationship but it should never get to the point where you each beat each other. Like an example would be me & my boyfriend get in arguments & knowing me I always have to be right no matter what but there's times where name calling gets involved & it ticks me off even more haha. But even then its never gotten to the point where we beat each other but theres time I hate my boyfriend but at the same time I love him with a passion & yes, he's caused me pain before, never physically but emotionally "something about the pain makes me want more" I see it that way at times. But most of teens tend to fall a bit to quick & it's kinda funny haha but I mean I hope you learned that you didn't deserve to be in a violent relationship. Never settle for less.
"To old for games & to young to get committed." that's how I see it. I've never been in a abusive relationship but then again I've been with the same guy almost four years "laugh out loud" but I'm really happy that you got out of the unhealthy relationship, I really am. Things will always get hard in a relationship but it should never get to the point where you each beat each other. Like an example would be me & my boyfriend get in arguments & knowing me I always have to be right no matter what but there's times where name calling gets involved & it ticks me off even more haha. But even then its never gotten to the point where we beat each other but theres time I hate my boyfriend but at the same time I love him with a passion & yes, he's caused me pain before, never physically but emotionally "something about the pain makes me want more" I see it that way at times. But most of teens tend to fall a bit to quick & it's kinda funny haha but I mean I hope you learned that you didn't deserve to be in a violent relationship. Never settle for less.
I'm proud that you got through this relationship. I once had a boy who called me names top, good thing he didn't live near me or things would have gotten bad. It's sad that you had to go through something like this to learn what true love is, but you did good. I'm glad that you learned from your mistake!
I'm happy that your now finally able to see this experience as a learning one. Sometimes thIngs that happen to us, at first may seem hopeless and that nothing will ever come out of it, but then later we can finally see that it will help us later in life as a lesson....by the way I would like a name, address, and phone number of this guy...he's about to come up missing.
i kind of had a similar situation. except for this particular situation was with my dad. my dad and I did everything together. I was daddy's girl. but then my dad started doing drugs and it changed everything. he was no longer supper man, and I was never sure what was going to happen. sometimes you just have to let people go even though you think you love them.
I liked you're blog a lot, being in an abusive relationship is hard to get out of. No one should ever go through an abusive relationship, it sucks and it can really hurt you physically and mentally. Loved you're blog stay strong girl.
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