"You have court in 3 days," was all my mom said. When she said that I then said, "What the hell! For what?!" My mom then said, "I don't know." All though she really did know why I had court. When my judge told me that I was going into states custody I freaked out and was like "Hell no!" I am not going into states custody.
One of my many mistakes is coming into foster care. When I went to court that first day I was so upset. I was upset at everyone including my mom. I was extremely pissed at my mom because I felt like she neglected me and didn't want me anymore.
I came into care because I was doing drugs and dating older guys and smoking cigarettes and drinking alcohol. My mom wanted me to get help and the thing is, is that I knew I wasn't going to get the help my mom thought I needed because I wasn't gonna let them help me. When it comes down to it I am a very stubborn person and I don't like help.
The one thing I learned from coming into foster care was that my mom didn't give me up at all. My mom wanted me to get help and I now I know that she loves me. I understand that my mom truly loves me and she wants the best for me even though it killed me inside. So I now thank her for putting me here because it was the best thing that has ever happened to me now.
3 comments:
Finding out your going to go to court is a hard thing to find out. When you find out your going into states custody it is usually not a good thing. When I found out I was going into staes custody I was glad because I did not have to deal with my step mom anymore.
I liked that your mom wasn't giving up on you. And that she was trying to help you. some moms would have just have been like I don't care, its her fault, I don't care about what she does. its nice that your mom cared enough about you to get you help, and that you finally learned that maybe states custody was going to help. one thing I would really like to know is what finally helped you get out of your head, and stop being stubborn. enough to the point were you could get help?
Well fertile when I decided to get help was when I knew I had 6 months to a year in care. I decided to get help because I want to get out of here. So right now it's about doing what I need to so i can get out of care.
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